For The Love of Transparency

Today John Piper's God Is Gospel spoke to my fear of writing based on the fact that I am not a professional writer. “What is written must of course be intelligible, but grammar is not the point. Love is the point.” My two desires for the stories I write is for them to serve the one whose feet are bruised and beautiful and for this collection of writings to read as love letters. Stories of my life penned only because of Love Himself whom pursues me daily and in this pursuit I find myself compelled to pour out that in which has been poured into me. I am not my own therefore what I share I am not the main character nor author of. If you so choose to read this blog, read knowing that you will find grammatical errors and words out of place, but what you won't find is anything short of transparency. I will not hide myself from you. I believe that hiding myself would only serve to keep you in hiding as well. This act benefits no one. I will never forget the day sitting in our first church membership class having the man across from Tony and I look at his wife and say “I want a marriage like theirs. I want you to place your hand on my back the way she places hers upon his.” Even as a young believer I knew I had to respond to his assumption of our marriage in truth. It would have been easy for pride to have his way, but would only have kept their fantasy of marriage alive. I knew the only way to love this couple was to expose the fantasy for what it was which in turn would give them hope. They sat with somewhat deflated faces as the realization hit them that our marriage journeys had traveled the same dusty road. It was in that moment that I became a lover of transparency.